TO SiewYing: dun spammed me back hor! i loved spamming you but revenge is a hateful thing. so NO SPAMMING BACK! haha! will continue to spam you so start worrying! hehe!!!! ^^
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6:04 AM
hahas, ytd i went to tuition unwillingly. i got out of my house at around 7.30 i guess. then i waited for the bus like for 15 minutes.
stupid bus! but double deck 143 so never mind. ^^ i sat on the first deck. then got one fat malay man sat next to me. i know i should not called him fat or anything, but coz i thin, then
his butt one on the seat, the other one was not. so kind of him not to squeeze me, coz if he did, i for sure scold him in front of everyone.
then at one bus stop, alot ppl got aboard. infront of me got this
old man playing wid his iPhone... -.- abit fuun the sight of an pld man holding it. he saw alot ppl got on the bus, he kept the phone away. then coz he sitting in the middle of three seats so two fat ppl sit next to him. he skinny but the sight of him being squeezed, so funny, but have to control it. the opposite the old man being squashed, almost hidden from those fats was a lady about 20+. from the same bus stop which alot ppl got on, got children as well. since the lady coincedentally sit in the mimddle as well, two children sat next to her. on her right was this fat child , she was talking to the fatty peoples squeezind the old man opposite. i guess fats also part of hereditary? on the woman left was the boy in singlets, his singlets was so big that you could see his
nipples!! im not exxagerating or whatsoever, i really so those nipples... he kept scratching himself i guess the woman was scared the germs got to her coz she immediately press the bell infront of her and got off the bus. haha now i was laughing silently.
i got of at my stop and went to 7-11 to but hershey chocolates and sweets. i wen tot the counter and then suddenly the woman behind ask me take another hershey chocolate, i did as i was told then she put it into a plastic bag and hand it to me. i paid it and went out. i opened it and to my surprise got two chocolate and my sweet. luck is on my side!
i got two chocolate for the price of one!! haha its my lucky day!! i slowly went up though i knew i was already late. i was late only by ten minutes! argh! usually about thirty minutes! should take a later bus next time. at break i ate my two chocolates while smsing siew ying, comforting her about the break up and promised to buy her chocolates the next time i meet her!
what a jerk he was, go break up even though say love her! then at 9.50 i think i finished my homework and let teacher mark it, i left my wallet behind and one "
classmate" ran down the stairs to give it to me. lols i so forgotful!! anyways it was my most lucky day. ^^ hope there is more of it!
waithing for november 8!! why so long. the next birthday!!
cake cake cake! my beloved cake! lihui, why your birthday so long away?!?! cant wait for it anymore!!
maybe pizza is good! i dunn care wad you guys buy but atleast something to be eaten, i okay wid it! hehe!! dun call me glutton hor! everytime say i eat alot but never grow fat... horrible people!! cake!! hey i want my birthday, you guys buy my the cake hor! i want see how disatrous my cake is wid siewying doing it!! haha. im not critising you or anything.
my cough aft one week still not gone... haven see doc yet... recently been going into facebook..
haha i read finish bitter virgin le! need find other manga to read. any recomendations anyone? but i dun want hentei wan hor!! i not pervert lah nor am i sick in the mind. wait is it the same thing?
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Thursday, October 8, 2009
1:30 AM
supposed go see doc ytd to skip sch today & tmr wan... but when i went ytd, the clinic was closed by the time i got there.. haishh, today is mother tongue thad means is chinese!! and my worst subject through my entire life is chinese!! so hard the 2nd compre, me passing thad paper is like zilch. if i pass, miracles do happen. tommorow papers is science and maths, my science hadn't always been so good, and i just passed last term. so not much chance pf passing. maths WAS my strongest subject, but due to playing/ sleeping/smsing and talking in class, i got 74.9 for maths last term!! an A2!! cant believe it!! need 0.1 more than A1 le!! why?!?! maybe i'll go Na next year, who knows?
i want go out! but exams here and no one got mood to go out! waiting for holidays to come then everyday go out!! okay maybe not everyday but most of the days lor! ^^
waiting for music marks to come out, see who got higher; me or jonathan?
my step-grandma going back ivory heights wid the maids on november something. so sad i cant go back wid them! she told me i must stay at teban there to 'keep the peace'. i dunno how to lo. she said something about thad if she go back, nigel (my brother) will bring his frens over, then my step-dad will quarrel wid my bio mum. so i must stat there to sort of keep them from argueing. i noe my mum prefer boys over girls and does not like me coz im a girl. she always pamper nigel even if he fails his exams, skips lessons, hangs out wid those people, all the bad stuff, she still loves him. even if he comes home at around 8 plus, she never scolds him.when i was still frens wid vennice they all, i come home around 6 or 7, she gives me a tongue lashing and always threatened me. she buys things for him dun buy for me. the only thing she gives me is only $ money, $ money and $ money. why cant she loves me the way she loves nigel?!
im noisy, talkative in primary school is because almost everyone noes me and what i ofter do. but in secondary school, im always so quiet, i dun even like being quiet. but wad can i do? i scared if i said one wrong thing or do one wrong thing, my frens might abandoned me the way vennice they all did. the day when they hand me the letter, was the saddest day of my life. i can never forget thad day, till today i still remember it clearly. like it was yesterday. i dun like growing in a broken family, especially in my type of family. my mum and step-dad side prefers nigel more than me. even if they dun tell me, i noe it myself through their actions and attitudes towards me. my dad and step mum side like me a little more but wads the difference? being in the stupid rainbow programme every tuesdays always remind me that i grew up in a broken family, kept reminding me of those days when i truly suffered. i hate going there but i had to put a smile on my face for everyone. like for example the closing ceremony for rainbow programme, they read a letter about a mum writing to their children, i heard it and some tears rolled down my cheecks, good thing the teachers want us to close our eyes so i think no one saw it even my frens who attend it wid me. while listening to it, i was thinking if it was ture then how nice it would be. questions like: then why did you divorce him? why did you do nothing when you noe i was being abused? why did you act so carin in front of others while behind closed doors, you ignore me, you treat me like invisible? deep inside of me i really want a nice and loving family, but why does god gave me a family like this?! a life like this?! when i went to siew ying house during mid autumm festival, i saw how close she and her mum were. i was so jealous. if only my family was like this, i dun mind being a goody goody two shoes. i kept doing bad stuff to attact thier attention but to no avail. i tried getting good grades because i noe nigel cant get it, its still the same. nothing i do can attract their attention. even when i cut my hand, the reaction is still the same; nothing! why do i have such a bad life?! why me?! so wad if im rich and have tons of money? i want a loving family. im willing to give money up for it. nothing i do is going to work. maybe in my next life, i'll get a better life, a better family.. maybe..... maybe not....
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